Wednesday, August 03, 2005

missing you

I'm really missing my husband right now and it reminds me of when I was in college and we first starting dating and we had the unhealthy co-dependent relationship that is so great and intense and make-you-sick-to-your-stomach exciting. On those lonely nights I would listen to music and soon one song came to be one of "our" songs. It ended up being the song we danced our last dance to at our wedding. When I hear this song it literally wraps around my heart and squeezes it and I am an immediate wash of love and tears and emotion. Not many songs touch me in that way and speak to the way I feel about my soul partner and I want him to know that he is all that I need and all that I want...we don't need that stinkin pool, your love and support and humor and tenderness are more than enough to make my cup run over.

I miss you, jase

All I Want Is You - U2

You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
You say you want your story to remain untold
But all the promises we make from the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say you'll give me a highway with no one on it
Treasure just to look upon it
All the riches in the night
You say you'll give me eyes in a moon of blindness
A river in a time of dryness
A harbour in the tempest
But all the promises we make from the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

You say you want your love to work out right
To last with me through the night
You say you want diamonds on a ring of gold
Your story to remain untold
Your love not to grow cold
All the promises we break from the cradle to the grave
When all I want is you

All I want is you
All I want is you
All I want is you

love you


Eric said...

That was beautiful.

That is one of mine and Eric's songs also. It says so much.

Jason Dowdell said...

One of the reasons I don't read your blog while I'm at work is because it often brings me to tears. You're my soulmate and it's things like this post that remind me of the ties that bind our souls together.

I wanted to say something mushy about loving through the thick and thin but I'll hold off for now. Instead I'll share a few of my favorite Jason & Shannon moments to make you laugh and possibly even cry.

- 4 hour drives at 2am from Orlando to Tallahassee

- mentoring Wingnut

- loving you so much it hurt

- buying a house

- avoiding muggings in Costa Rica

- making that new house our's

- ripping up perfectly good floors and putting down new floors in that house

- having an epiphany about children and telling your parents we weren't going to wait any longer to start having children when your dad was in a hospital bed

- watching you nest when it was time for Piper to come

- painting Piper's book case when you were in labor because the labor pains were killing me

- not being grossed out by Piper's birth and feeling more in love with you and this new life than ever before

- watching you become a mama and me become a papa in an instant and over time and feeling more fullness in life than I ever imagined

- watching our first baby become a little girl and seeing you in her more and more

- welcoming Finley into the world with open arms and a big sister to guide her

- trying, failing, trying, failing, trying some more to make family time a real priority

- learning the value of a coffee maker

- watching you improve yourself and our family life and house and being inspired by it

Shannon, through the beaches and the law suits, from Curacao to Murphy, North Carolina. From diapers to dating again. From weeknight dinners to Saturday morning breakfasts, my love for you grows stronger and deeper than I ever could've known when we were married. You're my soulmate and my lover. I'll be home shortly.


Eric said...

Damn it Jason. I am a blubbering mess now. That was so precious.

Noah said...


good post Jason. I remember a few of those times as well. I am sure you are glad those trips to Tallahasse are over, but I know you would do it all again for Sha.

Jason Dowdell said...

In an instant! Noah, remember when Shannon was pushing with Piper and she screamed and then Jon Pickle heard her and just left the sleeping bag outside the hospital room? OMG, that was hilarious, haha, life's great!

Natalie said...

Oh my gosh... That was soo sweet! It brought tears to my eyes too and I haven't even gotten to meet Shannon yet. I love seeing two people that have really found true love and enjoy life as much as the two of you seem to! :)

Noah said...

Yeah I prolly won't forget that one. John just turned and booked it down the hall. Haha he is funny.