I have reached a decision and today is my staring point. I am swallowing my pride (and alot of other things apparently) and posting how much I weigh because i have decided that i need to be accountable and each week i will weigh in, not because I need your validation or affirmation but because i need something that makes me look at where I am and where I want to be and how I am doing in the process.
I have become disgusted with my body. Since i have had children i have gone back and forth and at this point I can feel it all over. A little snug here, a full face, even my feet feel pudgy to me. This morning Piper asked me "what is in your big belly?" Not only that, but I feel lousy. I don't have energy or stamina and i feel just plain gross. It is affecting almost all areas of my life and so really this is going to become a life makeover. It is starting with the house and my body. We can work together. As I fix up the house and make it a home, I'll fix up my body and make it a temple. then comes the self image work. I am not a waif, i have an athletic body and that has been ok with me because I've always played sports. Varsity vollyball, basketball, soaftball, and tennis from 9th grade until i graduated in college, so I am not trying to be that skinny thing, just healthy and toned and strong.
There is no secret magiacl diet I will follow. Just eating less and more nutritious and exercising more. I will not deprive myself, but I will moderate what I am putting into my body. I will be aware and not be a bystander.
So, today is the day. Will you join me?
I weigh 138.2 pounds at 5'4".
My goal is 120 pounds.
That's about 20 pounds I want to lose.
I guess there should be a time frame, so let's say by Thanksgiving, that's 9 weeks. Does that sound accurate? That's about 2 pounds a week. That seems too easy?
ps - I dyed my hair back to 1/2 shade darker than my natural color and when i picked up Piper after having it done she says, "Mama, you painted your hair black!?!? Can I paint my hair black?"
I didn't think it was that dark but anyway, I'll try to post before and afters. I like it but it is taking some getting used to.